The realization of knowing iam just human and can never be perfect.

Its been awhile since ive laid something on here, life just gets in the way of things. So much to do so little time to do so.

Struggling with the everyday life scenarios of what to be, what to become, how to do it. Such is life i suppose. The realization of now knowing that iam just human and can never be perfect bothers me.

Things in my head i lay out and plan never seem to always follow thru. of what i wanna become in my adult life is harder then i thought it would be. I feel as if some roads maybe to long for me as if iam to old. Whats going to truly make me happy in the end? Will i ever be happy? proberly not. Its lame that you have to figure that out AFTER you do the things that led you there. Tho, was it a waste of time or a life learning experiance?

Will i ever get out of this hole iam in? I hope so.